Bah Humbug

Tis the season to be jolly. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. This year my Christmas spirit is in a war with my inner Scrooge and I hate to admit that little Ebenezer is winning. It's hard to be in the ho ho holiday spirit when I feel mostly alone. My parents and sister are gone and my brother is....being my typical brother and I feel like I have to beg him to spend time with me and even then  I feel like he doesn't want me around. That's a whole load of fun let me tell ya...

It's also hard to get in the Christmas spirit when I don't have a job and who knows when I will find another one. I haven't hear anything back from unemployment to see if I'm going to get anything and I haven't heard anything back from any if the 15 jobs I've applied to in the past 2 days either. It's stressful not knowing what is going to happen and I would love to be able to go back to school but unfortunately that costs money I don't have. I am going to try getting a scholarship but I am also not going to get my hopes too high. I've also been sick since Thanksgiving and I still don't feel 100% so that doesn't help either. I'm kind of frustrated because we had everything figured out to move and then Sarah got hired in at her job and now she doesn't want to move so I guess I get to put what I want on the back burner because of what she wants and sometimes that is really irritating. I guess that's what you get when you put your foot down enough *sigh*

O well hopefully I will be able to get back to the gym next week and that will make me feel better and I can shake these winter blues 

Until next time

Hugs, Kisses and Bestest wishes