Sigh

This isn't actually my car but I just realized I don't have any

plus I like this background ((lol))



  My days with Bernice are numbered and I'm not at all thrilled about it.  Sarah bought me a different car and just the thought of it depresses me.  It's a 1997 Ford Thunderbird and I think it's damn near the ugliest thing on the face of the earth.  Everyone keeps trying to talk it up and make it sound like it's going to be fantastic but I hate it and am trying to figure out how I can get rid of it ASAP!!! I'm even concidering getting a second job just to make extra money to save up for a different car so that one can go and pronto.  I want nothing to do with that car at all and I want MY car!! I love Bernice even with all her dents and rust.  I saved up MY money and bought her and she's all MINE no matter what!!!  Bernice is my key to independence and freedom.  I can get in and go wherever, whenver (providing that it's not too hot out) I want and noone can stop me.  I bought Bernice when Sarah and I split up in 2011 and love everything about having my own car, in my name, that I own all by myself.  I don't mind sharing 98% of my life and belongings with someone else but call me crazy I like having some things that I don't have to share if I don't want to.  Besides being mine all mine she's comfy, big and I feel safe in her.  She rides nice and even has a cool CD player (that I don't want to share either).  I get way to attached to cars I guess beacuse everyone thinks I'm nuts when I am in tears whenever I talk about getting rid of her but what they don't get is that she's not just a car to me.  I absolutely hate the idea of driving/having something that I didn't buy/get for myself.  I'm not the type of person that likes things handed to her and I'd rather go without than take a handout and that's what this car is to me.  I know it may be silly and it's not the same when it's bought when you're in a relationship and blah blah blah but I have been pretty much been taking care of myself since I was 14 and that's what I'm used to and I like it that way.  O well there isn't much else I can do about it because I think we are going to get it on Sunday.  I do know that I want to keep my CD player and if the stereo sucks in that jank car I'm putting it in there.

On another note we are almost ready for our church Unity Fest and I'm nervous and excited.  It's either going to be great or it's going to be a disaster but either way we tried and that's all anyone can do or ask from us

Sorry I had to vent for a minute about the car debacle

Until next time

Hugs, Kisses and Bestes wishes