This weekend is one for the record books and I don't like to use the word "epic" but it was totally epic!!!! Friday night was a fun night. Sarah and I had a long overdue dinner/movie date night. We went to our favorite little spot called ThisIsIt Eatery downtown and then went to see Iron Man 3. I have come to the conclusion I am a comic book nerd. Well I'm a comic book movie nerd. Every movie I've seen that was based on a comic book I've loved!!!! We also did some grocery shopping at WalMart and got all our Mother's Day cards. After that we just hung out and relax
Yesterday was one of the most fun I've had in a really long time. We went down to LaSalle Speedway for the Lucas Oil Late Model Dirt Series Spring Shootout. The races paled in comparison to the trip down there and that was only second to the ride home. We went down in a 15 passenger van with some long time friends that I haven't hung out with in a really long time. I honestly can't remember when the last time I had such a blast. We spent the whole time talking, joking and laughing and it was great to have so many awesome people around. On the ride back we stopped at this bar in Mt. Morris and saw a band and that was so much fun!! The band was great but again the people we were with was what made it even better. The ride home was so a great time too. Nothing beats great friends, cold beer, dirt racing and pit licking ((lmao)). We are already talking about doing it again and I can NOT wait!!!!!!! Love them!!!!!
Today was a bit of a suckaroo with it being mother's day and all. It's just another reminder that the woman that I looked at as a mother is no longer with me and it is really hard knowing that she's gone. Nothing is the same without her and my grandpa. Every holiday or special occasion always has that cloud hanging over that no matter what we do it will never be the same as the way they did it and that's the only way we know. They had a way of making everything wonderful no matter what it was. I know things change but there are just some things that you don't want to let go of. Not only is it a reminder that granny is gone it's also one of those days that is harder to deal with the fact that I'm not a mother. I went through so much last year and we spent so much time and money so that I could try to have a baby and we could start a family of our own and it didn't work. I know I shouldn't feel like this but it makes me feel like a failure. Like I can't do the one thing that God intended and designed me to do as a woman and I can't even do that right. There are so many things in this world that if I wanted I could figure out a way to get them except the one thing I've wanted more than anything since I was a little girl and that's a child of my own. I know I shouldn't feel that way but I do and it's really not a fun time. We also went to visit Sarah's mom for mother's day and picked up some plants so we can add more stuff to the yard and make it more pretty. We took her and Jerry out for dinner and hung out with them for a little bit and let the dogs play. They were really good while we were gone too which was good cause now we don't have to stress about leaving them home alone for a little while.
Well I'm going to hit the hay and try to finish recovering from last night cause it's back to the grind tomorrow. My supervisor is going to be here all week next week so I'm going to have to figure out a way to stay busy without boring myself to death...
Hugs, Kisses and Bestest wishes
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