My post yesterday was kind of random and didn't really tell a whole lot but that's cause my brain was all over the place and if you know me you know how easily that happens.
I'm going to try to bring you up to speed as best as I can for now and when I remember more I will put them down.
Late Spring and Summer weren't that great. Sarah and I had broken up and things were very hard trying to balance a friendship with her and accepting her new relationship and then we were in a funky in between place that was hard on everyone that was involved. Harsh things were said and feelings were hurt but in the between times we were able to have some fun. We spent a lot of time at the races and there was softball as usual (sometimes it was awkward and hard but all in all it was fun). Even though it was hard breaking up and her she moved out it was the best thing for us because we figured out what it was that we did and didn't want out of a relationship, we learned more about ourselves and each other and we are better off because of it.
Fall was a rollercoaster but then again I wouldn't expect anything else. My baby brother got married in September which only drove me further into a hole of "always a bridesmaid never the bride" and I was really bummed for a little bit and it was hard to stomach that my brother was getting married before me but that's life. Things aren't always fair or equal and I'm ok with that. I decided that instead of focusing on the fact that I wasn't married bother me I would remember when the right person comes along at the right time then it will happen I just have to be patient. It took a lot of weight off my shoulders and I was able to have fun and enjoy my brother's big day rather than be bummed and feel like a turd cause I'm stull not married. October was a sad month. It seems like it was forever ago but really it was only 2 months and 3 days since Papa passed away. It's so hard going through all the holidays without him here and I hate going to my grandparent's house and not seeing him or getting to talk to him. Granny has done so much to change the house it's almost like he never existed and it makes me really sad but I know it's what she had to do to get by and it is her way of coping and no matter what he gets rid of I will never forget him and I will never stop wishing he was here. One section of that not so amusing ride was moving. I hate moving with a passion!!! I hate packing, I hate loading and I hate unpacking. Everything about moving sucks (even though it is so much easier to clean when there is no furniture in the way. I moved out of the house that Sarah and I lived in together...to the apartment she moved into when she moved out of our house. It was strange making the transition from living alone to living with someone again even if it was the same person. It was also hard to not fall back into a feeling like we were in a relationship when we really weren't. She had some things she needed to deal with and some trash to get out of her life but she finally made her choice and kicked that other bitch and all her drama to the curb and now we're back together and it is better than before. Like I said breaking up and having some time apart was the best thing because now we both know for sure without a doubt that we want to be together and won't let anything or anyone stand in our way.
Winter is just starting but I know there will be a lot more interesting things coming our way. We have some big plans in the works an if all goes well I will make the announcement when the time is right
Until next time
Love Peace and Chicken grease
“Even now, I believe for the most part, love is about choices. It’s about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending, most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.” –Meredith, Grey’s Anatomy
I'm going to try to bring you up to speed as best as I can for now and when I remember more I will put them down.
Late Spring and Summer weren't that great. Sarah and I had broken up and things were very hard trying to balance a friendship with her and accepting her new relationship and then we were in a funky in between place that was hard on everyone that was involved. Harsh things were said and feelings were hurt but in the between times we were able to have some fun. We spent a lot of time at the races and there was softball as usual (sometimes it was awkward and hard but all in all it was fun). Even though it was hard breaking up and her she moved out it was the best thing for us because we figured out what it was that we did and didn't want out of a relationship, we learned more about ourselves and each other and we are better off because of it.
Fall was a rollercoaster but then again I wouldn't expect anything else. My baby brother got married in September which only drove me further into a hole of "always a bridesmaid never the bride" and I was really bummed for a little bit and it was hard to stomach that my brother was getting married before me but that's life. Things aren't always fair or equal and I'm ok with that. I decided that instead of focusing on the fact that I wasn't married bother me I would remember when the right person comes along at the right time then it will happen I just have to be patient. It took a lot of weight off my shoulders and I was able to have fun and enjoy my brother's big day rather than be bummed and feel like a turd cause I'm stull not married. October was a sad month. It seems like it was forever ago but really it was only 2 months and 3 days since Papa passed away. It's so hard going through all the holidays without him here and I hate going to my grandparent's house and not seeing him or getting to talk to him. Granny has done so much to change the house it's almost like he never existed and it makes me really sad but I know it's what she had to do to get by and it is her way of coping and no matter what he gets rid of I will never forget him and I will never stop wishing he was here. One section of that not so amusing ride was moving. I hate moving with a passion!!! I hate packing, I hate loading and I hate unpacking. Everything about moving sucks (even though it is so much easier to clean when there is no furniture in the way. I moved out of the house that Sarah and I lived in together...to the apartment she moved into when she moved out of our house. It was strange making the transition from living alone to living with someone again even if it was the same person. It was also hard to not fall back into a feeling like we were in a relationship when we really weren't. She had some things she needed to deal with and some trash to get out of her life but she finally made her choice and kicked that other bitch and all her drama to the curb and now we're back together and it is better than before. Like I said breaking up and having some time apart was the best thing because now we both know for sure without a doubt that we want to be together and won't let anything or anyone stand in our way.
Winter is just starting but I know there will be a lot more interesting things coming our way. We have some big plans in the works an if all goes well I will make the announcement when the time is right
Until next time
Love Peace and Chicken grease
“Even now, I believe for the most part, love is about choices. It’s about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending, most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.” –Meredith, Grey’s Anatomy
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